This entry begins with a recording of nighttime park ambiance. It was originally recorded for GREENER GRASS AWAITS, but the sound didn't fit the game. A train is heard- a recording I made in Martinez.

dislocate and destroy

it's all, dissolved, in fall

there's no one else to call

A synth track.

 The poison comes from our worst impulses

"it stands to reason, there's no reason to stand"

"it's all going to plan"

one day i'll wake up somewhere else 

one day i'll wake up somewhere else 

one day i'll wake up somewhere else

This entry begins with a recording of rain dying down as I was seated in my car. Mostly synths otherwise.

On the road again

Slip in and out my friend

I can't remember where I turn

And I can't control my face

Just can't hold on these days

A life of letting go. And

There's something better than whatever we have here

Yeah there's something burning bright

There's something lighter than the weight of all these years

Yeah there's stairs to another life

This entry began its life as an attempt to make a song for my apple selling game. It didn't fit the mood.

Have you ever seen a pool so deep

so warm and everything

it's screaming your name

screaming your name

won't you get in and swim

it's calling your name

calling your name

won't you get in and swim

do you see it now

when you're on your own

can you get into your life

do you see it now

when you're on your own

do you see it now

And the sky is not yellow

It's orange, the end, it's fine

And the sky is not yellow

It's orange the end of time

As you watch the world's turning

You know you're out of time

do you see it now

and the sky's not yellow

when you're on your own

it's just blood orange

can you get into your life

and it's fine

do you see it now

and the sky's not yellow

when you're on your own

it's just blood orange

and it's fine

do you see it now 

I think the original motive behind this track was to create something where I was trying to do something unambiguously beautiful. When I make music, I feel like I sometime struggle with choosing a top-down aesthetic that informs the track, and I end up with something in between. All synth besides that vinyl loop!

I think I made this shortly after releasing SPLIT WHOLE. I wanted to create a track that leaned more on vocal melody over switching chords in the instrumental. Lyrically, I wanted to involve the use of more imagery, rather than the more literal statements like I felt like I'd been writing up to this point.

I am talking about a specific song on this track 🥸

Enter

Sit down

See the fragments littered in the rug

Match burnt fingers pick them up

Piece them, need them, no surprise

Secret message in my eyes

My favorite song is playing in the car

I sing along and mean it bar for bar

My favorite song is playing in the car

I sing along and mean it bar for bar

All these cars keep passing by

All these cars keep flashing 

On the hillside, watching, walking under low grey skies

Grasses wave and pass me by

Loop around the trail and find

My car parked in the car park fine

Driving home so don't ask why

My favorite song is playing in the car

I sing along and mean it bar for bar

My favorite song is playing in the car

I sing along and mean it bar for bar

Another dreamy track as break from the terrifying world and the normally scheduled dreary. 

I've sat on this song for like 2-3 years now, and remembered that it's actually a perfect fit for the audio document series. I think it sounds like remembering the orange afternoons of just a few years ago. 

This was meant to be on my album SPLIT WHOLE at one point, but was kicked because it was unlike any other track on the album.